So... Lots have changed in the past few months for me...I have been given the opportunity to go back to school and continue my education in hopes of becoming a high school english teacher. Yes I might be a little crazy but oh well it's what I want to do with my life. Actually what I want to do with my life is become a writer or a photographer or both, something in the creative world that I so desperately want to live in but I have kids and a family to support so I must do something practical. I have filmed a lot of youtube videos lately but haven't had the nerve to post it yet. I'm not sure why seeing as I have a lot of personal thoughts here on my blog but I guess YouTube is more accessible and easier to find than blogger so I'm not as nervous letting all of you into my mind. I wish I could just muster up the nerve to post those videos because I spent a lot of time editing them, hopefully one day. I think my goal with YouTube and this blog is to preserve memories for my family for when I am gone, I learned a lot with the passing of my nana she didn't have many pictures of herself only of her family and my fiancé, who lived with her his whole life, didn't know much about her. So if there is a way to preserve a memory of me for my kids, grandchildren, even my great grandchildren then I will feel as if I have accomplished something in my life. I wish there was a way to preserve memories for everyone. When my aunty passed away a year ago I kept thinking to myself, I didn't say goodbye, I don't know much about her, the memory of her is slowly fading away and will continue to fade away with time. I don't want my kids to go through that when it is my time to fly high in the sky with the angels. So lets take a leap of faith and hope that I grow some balls to post more often and to finally post a video. Btw would you guys hate it if I switched my blog over to WIX?
Lets catch you all up on some things shal we?
So my nana passed away back in July, and since then I had a month to find, pack, and move to a new house with my fiancé two sons and my papa. Well it's been almost two months since we have moved into our new house, and can I just say, I absolutely love the house. But things have happened that I don't feel is right to post on the world wide web and circumstances have changed and we are having to move out of our house by the end of the month, this time just me, my fiancé, and kids. Sometimes I think that this is a change for the better, we will be moving to town instead of being 20 miles away from my sage's school we will be only a 20 min drive away. We will also be closer to my school as well and closer to skyler's babysitter (my grandma). I also made a goal this year to be more involved with my Sage's school and join the PTO, I haven't joined or even gone to a meeting yet but I am volunteering to take pictures at his school's carnival day on October 7th so that should be exciting a fun! I have been distant from my kids and maybe a little harsh on my older boy and there really is no excuse for it other than I have been completely stressed out about everything and living out of boxes for two months. So I hope that I can be a better person for my family, calm down a bit, and not let everything get to my head. I want to spend more time with them and create beautiful memories to cherish forever!
Until next time lovelies...
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